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It’s 8:20am. I am still suppose to be sleeping still (my usual wake up time on Mondays is 10:20am). However, I actually didn’t sleep much last night.  Did a lot of tossing and turning.  However under circumstances, it feels like I had a good nights sleep.  It’s odd.  I’m also breaking out like crazy.  Ughh. I can’t wait for Thanksgiving in a way but then again I’m not.  I’ll be doing nothing but sleeping.  Which by the way was amazing this weekend.  I really wish my body wasn’t turning against me.  I feel so icky.. but I know it’s a natural part of the female body.  Also, it tells me that I’m not uhm.. I’m normal?  HA.  I did work out last night.. I did decent.  15 minutes on the eliptical machine, 5 minutes on the treadmill, 10 reps each on the leg machines (I can’t remember what they are called), and 15 or so reps on the ab machine.  But my abs were kinda killing me after the eliptical machine.. oddly enough.  I mean that’s really all that I want to work on is abs but also just to work on my stamina.  I am “skinny” but uhh.. yeah I’m out of shape.  haha.  I want to work out at least once a week.  In and out of gym. Helps release pent up frustration.

I’m a little bummed that my friend is going through some heartache at home.  I’m hoping that everything is gonna work itself out there.  I don’t like seeing them sad.  It breaks my little heart.  And I want to be there all that I can for them however in my current situation, there’s not much I can do. I’ll try anyways. They’ve been there for me, so I should and will do the same.

It’s bittersweet being home.  I get food but at a price.  My mother’s nagging.  Yeeck.  I had some bomb ass Pho and chicken wings but really..  I got her snooping through my wallet and asking me all these questions.. like “Who’s your boyfriend?” WHAT boyfriend, woman?!  I’m getting a little tired of that. I’m not seeing anyone! So I talk to a few males every once in a while and I hang out with them sometimes.. occassionally I have my one on one time with them… but like she blames my reasons for not coming home as I’m seeing a guy.  I ya!

And then she got a little angry about my frequent texting.  Oops. That I can see her yelling about out.  I was actually trying to cut down on. But then she was like, I don’t want you going anywhere without any PepperSpray…  well damn.  That’s weird.  How did she know I was having security issues?  Hmm..  All in all weird time at home.  Oh yeah and I’m leaving here with THREE more Buddhist charms..  One for prevention of any harm that I must have near me at all times. And the other two she didn’t really elaborate on just they were “special”.  So to add that to the collection of what I have now, the Big buddha I wear on occassion on the silver chain for making sure I make safe journeys, the ivory dove for making people enjoying my presence and “feeling compassion”.. and the in car items: The dangly wood piece with a basket, plastic lei looking thing, and a written out cloth for even more luck.  :slaps forehead: Oh mother!

Oh yeah if you may be wondering, I’m sticking to being called Noi now.  I dunno, I’m gonna test it out.  Elizabeth is just too.. popular to me.  Besides that, Noi actually makes sense, seeing as it mean little.. it’s a no brainer.  Makes me seem more exotic too. I know I’m doing the opposite of what everybody is doing. HAHA

Don’t Trust Men by M (Lee Minwoo)

Now things make sense. lol

If I don’t pass this Comm Theory test with flying colors I am gonna drown myself in a puddle. (If you didn’t get the joke is: I can’t swim.) But seriously, I’ll be beyond mad.  I’ve never studied this hard in my life… okay minus the SAT’s I think?  Nope.. this is the most hardcore I’ve gone.  Three days straight of studying plus on-off since the last test.  :sigh:  I haven’t slept in days. And I have 2 5hr Energy’s in me, supersized Starbucks Frappachino & Redbull in my system.  I was prepared.  My friend said that I know everything but still.. last time I thought I knew it, I didn’t do so well.  But the reason why I’m not studying anymore and blogging instead is because I can’t take it anymore.  My head is gonna explode and I’ll forget everything.

Man will I need an different type of outlet after this.  What I’ve got now, I can only do for another 6 months or so max. Then it’s gone. I thought about taking up photography but I’d need a good camera for that.  My old Cybershot isn’t cutting it in terms of megapixels.  Then I thought about car modification and as much as I love my Civic, I can’t touch my car like that until I pay for it.  (I.E. I take over payments from my mother)  That’s gonna be a while.  Then I thought about … hold that thought I gotta pee.

Grr.  After I came back from the potty my laptop decided it wanted to go on Hibernation.  Well I guess it’s better than Shut Down.   I forgot what my sentence was up there.  I don’t know I just want sleep.  Which I should do but of course the drinks I had earlier, aren’t helping.  I started crashing a little but trying of course my natural body clock is set to late so.. yeah.

But yeah I guess I’m done?  I’m have a major brain fart.  And I’ve got restless leg syndrome.  I’m also hungry but the kitchen is too far away (lazy) and my chips are out there.

Oh yeah I remember now one of the other things I was suppose to bring up, I’m a little on the slow department when it comes to life but love and crap, that is not what’s going on right now. I’m not falling for anyone or anything. Seriously.  Seems nowadays people think that’s what since I’ve been in a really nice mood lately. Hell no!  I’ve just been getting satisfaction in life a lot more.  I have pent up energy that is put to good use instead of just sitting around being useless most days. It’s all about making you happy. If you’re happy, I’m happy. So it’s a cycle.  If I’m nice, you’re happy and when you’re happy I’m more nice.. see?

Finally, I’ve been listening to a lot of Asian Pop lately.  I don’t know why..  especially like the K-Pop category.  Odd I know.  Oh wait I know why, like I was on Perez Hilton like last month and he featured the Wondergirls.. and then to top that off, a friend has been playing various catchy songs. lol

Ahhh the three I’s.   That is I in a nutshell.  Ask anyone who knows me, and they will speak on my indecisiveness.  I don’t like being a decider.  I much rather someone else chose what the answer will be.  I don’t trust myself when it comes to sticking to one thing.  Because I always change my mind afterwards. Haha.  Proof is in my social networking profile pictures.  I change those at least once a month.  I don’t know why?  I just get tired of them.  I have yet to find a picture that I’ll keep for a while.  I guess I don’t the right eye-candy to it?  I’m not sure.

Anyhow, that brings me to point two.  Insecure.  I am very insecure.  Especially with my body.  I went to go workout with my friend Sam this afternoon for about 30 minutes or so and like I just felt the need to want to work everything out.  But I know my body can only take so much.  I’ve been told by males and females that I have a nice body however I don’t feel that is correct.  I just feel I could stand to have different traits.  My attraction level is not very high I think.  But time and time again, people say otherwise.

Third.  It’s 3 am.  I’m still up.  Why?  I have no idea. But I would like to sleep one of these hours.  I have plenty of things to do.  It pretty much sucks that I don’t go to bed (sleep) early.  It’s always an AM when I finally give up and try to sleep.  Speaking of which.. I’m gonna try to do that.. after I go use the toilet. Ugh.